“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

([Joel to Bette:] “Do you have any feelings of what you were doing there? Why would you go where you didn’t belong. You knew you didn’t belong there the minute you saw the place.”

([Bette:] “I didn’t know I didn’t belong there and I didn’t really care about the Indians. All I cared about was my own.”

([Bette:] “Right. I just didn’t care as long as there was...”

([Bette:] “That’s right.”

([Bette:] “I didn’t know at the time what was actually going on and I don’t think...”

([Bette:] “All we knew was who was on the warpath and when.”

([Bette:] “No. I was in my own little existence. All I cared about were my own kids and you took care of that.”

([Bette:] “I didn’t give a damn about him.”

([Bette:] “That day?”

([Bette:] “Well, who started it? I sure didn’t. My kids sure didn’t and my husband didn’t. He couldn’t do anything.”

([Bette:] “I don’t know. Do you?”

([Bette:] “Well, who did then?”

([Bette:] “Coming in where?”

([Bette:] “To my little old mud shack? Perhaps by the time you got there I had already killed my husband.”

([Bette:] “Well, I did. And I would do it again.”

([Bette:] “Because he started to—He just didn’t have any gumption to him. He started to whimper and to cry when he knew that he had his home and his family to protect and he didn’t do it, and I had crying kids and I didn’t need a crying husband because the older kids could shoot much better than their father because he didn’t know how to pull the trigger. He didn’t know how to do anything.”

([Jane to Bette:] “Do you know your husband now?”

([Bette:] “I don’t think so, but maybe I do.”

([Bette to Joel:] “Don’t fight with me either. Just be nice.”

([Bette:] “Right.”

([Bette:] “Yes. I learned a lot from that lifetime because I am a regular crusader when it comes to Indians and it’s a wonder I haven’t grabbed a sword and said, ‘charge’, because I have great feelings for the Indians. I have had more fights when there has been racial talks and discussions on the blacks and the whites and so on. Somehow I always managed to get the Indian into the argument so evidently I have forgiven all that they did to me until l saw Joel, and then it all came back.”

([Bette:] “I feel all right. I felt fine towards Joel the first night because the minute you started talking, for weeks I had been coming to class, when I would see the war paint on him I would get a terrible pain in my head. I remarked several times in class about I had this pain in my head, and I couldn’t work it out no matter what I did. And that night here in the room when you were talking it was like somebody was pulling something out of my head, and I have not had this pain or this pressure since.”