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TPS7 Deleted Session November 10, 1982 6/67 (9%) chair scared crying leaned tv
– The Personal Sessions: Book 7 of The Deleted Seth Material
– © 2017 Laurel Davies-Butts
– Deleted Session November 10, 1982 8:28 PM Wednesday

[... 28 paragraphs ...]

(8:58. “Me. I don’t know what to do. I just want to put my head up. I’m scared, though....”

[... 5 paragraphs ...]

(9:07. Jane still spoke for Seth with her head down for the most part. Voice strong but muffled, eyes usually closed. “I found your face,” she said then, staring at me straight on. “I wanted to hold my head up—do something—because I’m so scared.” I helped her lean back against the pillow in her chair.

[... 3 paragraphs ...]

(9:14. “He’s right. I’ll try to.... I want to cry, but I need to get more comfortable.” I changed the pillow at her back, which helped. “I feel like screaming,” Jane said, “but it scares me....” I lit a cigarette for her. The moment had passed, I thought.

(“It’s okay to scream,” I said. “The idea of doing it would scare anybody.”

[... 2 paragraphs ...]

(“Because I’m going to have to let go or do something pretty quick.... Boy, am I scared.” Jane said this often. I rubbed her back low down on her spine. She was very restless. I wasn’t sure whether or not she’d let the tears come through. “I’ve got to put myself out, like I did the other night,” she said at 9:28. I wasn’t sure of what she meant by that. But it seemed that now she would try to shut off the crying, or sidetrack it, at this time. The charge, built up and/or saved since childhood, must be terrific. Ordinarily the crying would hurt me, but now, this time, I really wanted her to let it come through.

[... 18 paragraphs ...]

(“I’m worried about being alive 15 minutes from now,” she said after a pause. “I really am. I’m scared. Please don’t write those notes now.”

[... 4 paragraphs ...]

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