“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your stomach began to bother you when you considered whether or not to use photographs. (On Sunday, when I bought an album to keep them in.) You have the idea of how the book can appear, a model that exists in your mind. Use the model, but let it be a flexible one, in which your ideals work with the material at hand, molding it. Do not exaggerate, however, so that the ideal seems to be a perfection that cannot be attained given the conditions.

The wonder about your mother’s reaction however is important here. You feel she would want the family described in its best light. Your stomach became uncomfortable as those feelings tried to make themselves known.

(“Well, with the pendulum I’d arrived at the idea that my stomach bothered me because of a conflict between painting and writing—the time I have for each. I want to do them both—it isn’t that I prefer one over the other. I received the answer that I felt guilty over the conflict: when I wanted to do one, I thought I should be working on the other.”)

(“I thought of the photo connection when I first bought the album, and told Jane what I had in mind. But I got off the track with the pendulum. I never got a clear idea of what bothered me. I didn’t ask the right questions; I knew this when my stomach kept bothering me. I finally got so confused I stopped trying to use it.”

(And those are the ones that count, it appears. I felt much better after the session last night. I slept well, and worked well at painting this morning. But when I began typing this material after lunch, the stomach complaints returned. to some degree—proof to me that Seth’s diagnosis had been quite accurate.