“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In the past this was done completely at an unconscious level, with no conscious knowledge. He took no responsibility for his image. Since childhood, he expected later life to make up for any privations suffered earlier. Books were to bring instant success. The taste of limited success whetted his appetite during your tour. On the other hand he was afraid of it for the reasons given earlier, having to do with yourself.

Actual continued success on the other hand would have been a definite experience that you could have met together, say then another tour. He could have been reassured by your reactions. The slowdown however gave him ambiguous feelings, lest success on his part meant further time from your own painting, which you would resent; so that in that respect continued success at tours would be at the expense of your valued painting time.

Now. Rest or a nap in the middle of the day is the most literal and yet symbolic interpretation of a slowdown. Here on awakening he was confronted with the intuitive knowledge of what he had done, not only since the tour but to varying degrees before it. For to carry the idea through, he would have to stop completely.