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He is strongly accusing toward anything he regards as religious deceit, because of his experience you see, with several priests in the past. There is some connection here. He is deeply committed to his idea of truth and goodness. When he could no longer believe in the tenets of the Catholic Church wholeheartedly, fervently and completely, he divorced himself from it as thoroughly as he had once embraced its tenets.

His potential for commitment is truly powerful. He is committed to you for example, in this way. He is being overly cautious, realizing the strength of his commitments. He makes few of them. It has been all or nothing until this point.

Here he has tried to hold back, and yet not hold back. One very large portion of the personality is totally committed to our endeavors. Another portion has so far withheld complete commitment, though the rejection seems greater by contrast. In others the rejection would come close to commitment, but for him this is not enough.

A definite strain therefore developed, particularly painful since it involved his work also, to which he has always been strongly committed. He recognized the value of our endeavors to his work. On the other hand he still was not completely (underlined) committed, and therefore mistrusted.

He did not want to use his work (pause) to place his work, at the service of a cause to which he was not indelibly committed. (Long pause, eyes closed.) He has always been concerned with teaching, as I have been. The conscientious portions of the personality are of great benefit in that area. (Voice quiet but firm and emphatic). He must believe completely in what he is doing, in what he is teaching, or he feels himself deceitful.

Let him remind himself that he is fearless in his poetry, and commits himself to it fully, and his ability here has always led him onward to further unfoldments and never into betrayal or deceit. It is precisely this same kind of ability he is using now. (In trance.)

Ruburt does not mistrust himself because he plunges headlong, literally, into the poetic experience. He does not feel guilty because he does not intellectually question the moment of poetic revelation. He should therefore allow himself to plunge headlong with the same commitment into this experience.