“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I felt good when this session began, yet began to feel anger as it progressed. Part of this was probably defensive. I think also the anger partly stemmed from hearing the same things over again in some instances—that is, that we had made so little progress seemingly in dealing with vital points. But the expression of fears was very beneficial, we thought, and surprisingly this was new for both of us.

(9:50. I had quite a few questions to ask, but since my anger had still been building up I now did not write them down, or Seth’s answers—which were very good, incidentally. I was deeply irritated and frustrated. A sharp exchange with Seth followed, and I ended up furious—which I suppose was a good way to blow off steam. Seth insisted that the answers re Jane’s symptoms, and my own contributing attitudes, had already been given in past sessions, but were not being followed.

(I did insist that in my opinion the body, including the conscious mind, wasn’t doing a very good job of taking care of itself in such cases. I finally asked for a break, since I now could hardly talk. I wasn’t sure of the target of my anger, or the reasons—everyone and everything, I suppose. I finally admitted to being completely baffled by the whole affair including the way people lived and behaved generally, etc.

(Typically, this was a subject which Jane and I discussed very little, and which obviously must be loaded with hidden fears and angers on both our parts. It will be dealt with.)