“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

When you can into longer accept it then you must change it. Otherwise the feeling of hopelessness builds up. Ruburt has been afraid, because of his background, to accept the negative aspects of your exterior circumstances. He loves you so deeply that he never wants to admit that you are hurt, bitter or sad. He has always thought that you were used, mainly by your mother, but he was afraid that his statements would be misinterpreted because of his own relationship with his parents.

Now you both thought that Ruburt’s symptoms were a solution. You thought they bought you time. This has been a cooperative effort. You felt your physical problems insurmountable, that you had not the energy to face them. Ruburt’s symptoms you thought gave you both time. You had moved so often in the past you were afraid of making a false move, and so you chose to make no move at all. You became afraid of challenge.

Ruburt was terrified because his early efforts seemed to have left you nowhere. You seemed to have no initiative to make a physical move on your own, and he was afraid of making another false suggestion. You simply became afraid to act in the physical universe. For a while you adopted the symptoms of immobility then Ruburt accepted them.

[...] He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

He is afraid of hurting people by upturning their views. [...] He is frightened of setting up a new religion, afraid. [...]

[...] When the poetry was thus criticized, Ruburt was afraid the support would be withdrawn. [...]

[...] You are each afraid to believe that they can and will be. [...] Each of you, however, shy away because you are afraid of being disappointed.

[...] But you have both been afraid of looking for improvements. [...]

[...] if I have this right… that I was afraid of my own energy... maybe afraid that I was supposed to change the world or try to... afraid ...of what? [...]

(Jane was afraid of others as a young girl, and even in college — that she wouldn’t get their approval — whereas, I said, the others should have been afraid that they wouldn’t get her approval, since her abilities transcended theirs. [...] I said it’s too bad the young don’t have the insight to stress their capabilities regardless of the opinions of others — but such thinking comes with age, usually, I’m afraid.

[...] The symptoms, then, served to keep her at her desk over the years because she was afraid that if left alone she’d fly off somewhere and wouldn’t do anything.

[...] Jane was afraid getting pregnant would ruin my career because I’d have to work full time. [...]

[...] He is afraid to take the plunge. He is afraid to say no also.

He is afraid of striking out or harming others, and to some extent, still afraid of spontaneity. [...]

[...] She is afraid of me.

[...] You are afraid your house rests on shifting sands. You fear your fears would devour you and are afraid to go among them. [...] You are afraid of losing your footing, you see. [...]

[...] (Pause.) Such a person is afraid to trust any one impulse enough to act upon it. [...] Such people are afraid of making decisions, because they are afraid of their own impulses — and some of them can use meditation to dull their impulses, and actually prevent constructive action.

When you are taught not to trust your impulses you begin to lose your powers of decision, and to whatever extent involved in the circumstances, you begin to lose your sense of power because you are afraid to act.

[...] He is damned if he will let go and yet he is afraid to pull harder. You can specifically say that this has to do with what you call your psychic work, but even before “it” began he was aware of that energy of his, concerned about using it, focusing it, delighted with it, and afraid of it at the same time.

[...] He is afraid to go ahead, feeling it not safe, yet he is damned if he will retreat, and for that matter he realizes that there is no retreat from your own knowledge and experience.

He has been afraid to use his abilities freely, and therefore set up physical conditions that remind him constantly of his body and objective physical life, for fear that he will go too far beyond it. [...]

He was never afraid of me. He was afraid for portions of himself, for reasons having little to do with me, per se. (Pause.) The spontaneous self he was afraid of. [...]

[...] He let them run away with him, and is doubly afraid now. [...]

He is afraid of going home because of current conditions — but that fear also prolongs current conditions. To some extent or another, you have both been afraid of making any plans at all concerning Ruburt’s return home, because they seem impractical at the present time. [...]

[...] She said through tears that she wants to get well, but that meant little to me, I’m afraid, since her state flatly contradicts such protestations. [...]

[...] On another level, he is afraid of going home, thinking it almost impossible under current conditions. [...]

[...] And you are afraid in your terms of taking energy away from these pursuits. [...] You are afraid to let yourselfgo in those terms. You want very much to have your feet solidly in physical reality, and you are afraid that if you let yourself go you will miss your footing, and this is not the case. [...]

[...] At the same time, you were afraid of physical reality, and because of your environment in this life, you are afraid that you could not deal with it. [...]

[...] You are afraid for example that in psychological time—granted you find the physical time for it—you will take needed energy away from your physical pursuits. [...]

[...] Ruburt was afraid also you would retreat as he felt your father had. [...] To some extent you were afraid of the same thing.

He believed that you wanted sex, but that you were afraid of it, as he was, because of the possibility of pregnancy. [...]

He was afraid during the tour that you would feel put in second place, rather than as an artist being the star of your own show.

[...] Particularly of course he was afraid of unpleasant emotional expression, or anger.

An example was the Sunday at your mother’s, when he was afraid of the cramp in the leg, which did not come in the way that he feared.

[...] He thinks he is afraid to have people see him in poor shape, and so does not want to answer the door. [...]

[...] But the other girls weren’t afraid of him. [...] And I was too afraid of him to even speak to him.)

… He is afraid of any contacts that would … It seems here that there is a certain thing that he fears will happen to him if he involves himself in any relationship that would result in a family group. [...] In this past of which I speak there was a physical difficulty suffered after he abandoned them; and if he leaves them now, he is afraid that this physical difficulty will return. [...]

([Rob:] “So you see, that puts a far different light on a person’s behavior than just to say he’s afraid to get married or he’s afraid of women.” [...]

[...] The statements of the Sinful Self show him clearly the reasons why he was afraid of pursuing the unknown, and afraid therefore of using his own natural abilities freely and safely. [...]

[...] But if he seems afraid it is because he fears, in an exaggerated manner, that if given freedom he would want you, and you would consider this disruptive, of work and schedule.

[...] He was afraid of himself so he could hardly give himself. [...]

He is afraid to move (underlined three times)—but he will also be excited. You are also afraid to move, and both of you are wary of fitting yourselves into a new environment, and in a small but significant way, of making a new personal world.

Then he becomes angry when you say “Why don’t you make a decision?” He felt you were afraid to, and if he made one and it was wrong, he did not want to take the blame. [...] He is afraid of hurting you, of making you move, or making you cry.

[...] After leaving trance Jane said, “I’m afraid to move,” then explained that this time she was afraid only of moving away from this house. [...]

[...] You are as afraid of your energies as Ruburt is. He is afraid of not directing them into his “work.” [...]

He was afraid that the body spontaneity would lead him away from mental and psychic agility. [...]

[...] Van Gogh and Cézanne were afraid of their energy, and with all they did could have done far more. [...]

(To Daniel.) Now you must realize the vitality that is within each of you and not be afraid of it as you are. Now you are controlling it and disciplining it, but also, you are afraid of it. [...]