“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This is a summary of our free-association material for Tuesday, May 8, 1984 — Jane’s 55th birthday:

(Jane tried using the pendulum I carry in my wallet; this followed from our discussions about my using the pendulum of late. Since I’ve been achieving considerable relief with my gum challenges the last few days, Jane has become increasingly interested. She’s also somewhat intimidated, saying that I get better results than she does — whereas I think her own attitude gets in her way and that comparisons shouldn’t be made. We also had trouble with it today because, it being her birthday, several extra interruptions took place as various staff members came in to sing to us, and so forth. They brought cards and foil toys. I gave Jane a card and candy, and brought in forsythia, which moved her to tears. The yellow-flowered shrubs grow in the front yard of the hill house.

(Thoughts of her birthday at once led her to Mother’s Day and her own mother, Marie. Jane talked at length about the welter of conflicting events surrounding Marie and herself. She realized that as a youngster she had loved her mother, and tried hard to do things for her, even when Marie had rejected her efforts say, in buying a nightgown of the “wrong” color.

(The aftereffects from the “form” lingered as we talked about it and I made these notes. Jane hadn’t been consciously thinking about psychic matters. Earlier I’d read her the verse from the birthday card I’d bought her yesterday, and she had enjoyed that as much as she had yesterday, when I’d read it to her for the first time. Both of us had felt emotion at the reading, both times. She didn’t know if that might have triggered her experience. But our feelings engendered by the reading of the card were valuable events in themselves.