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The crisis would have developed on the condition that Ruburt tried to use and develop his spontaneous and intuitive abilities on an adult basis. The cleavage between discipline and spontaneity had long existed; given the all-or-nothing attitude of the personality, there was bound to be a swing, a complete swing from one to the other until the personality learned to combine the two and become more thoroughly integrated.

His abilities, to be used fully, would inevitably have led him to such a crisis point, or better to such a challenge. Any work of art of his, not an apprentice work, would have led him to the same point. Poetry is the exception, for here the necessary integration happened early in his career.

The overly-disciplined self could not be hidden now. One part of the self could no longer be dominant at the expense of the other. The physical symptoms represented the conflict as the overly disciplined self again tried to take over the reins. It has gradually let itself fit in now, let itself integrate, and in so doing the body has been relived of symptoms.

As complete integration takes place the body will be restored to normal. If the process seems slow, you can be assured that it is a legitimate and steady integration, for nothing but a complete integration would suffice if the personality is to achieve its potential.

Now, the overly conscientious or disciplined self is letting go as the integration takes place. The inner psychic in terms of psychically psychological activity has been constructive therefore since the process of integration began. He should, as he realizes, avoid dwelling on the symptoms consciously. This does not mean that he pretend they do not exist.

There should be a conscious letting go now also. This life sees this integration as necessary. Past lives have involved him with personalities either strongly intuitive or strongly intelligent, highly overbalanced in one category or the other. The full potential therefore should be seen in this, the last reincarnation.

He thought of the overly conscientious self as stern, good, boring, constricting and uncreative, but very safe. He never made any serious attempt to integrate his personality, or to understand these portions of himself until recent years. He did not understand that discipline can be an aid to creativity, and that the spontaneous self is good. These erroneous attitudes were built up in this life. They echoed however experience in past lives also.

An out-thrust from the spontaneous self was a necessity then. The integration that is taking place will insure an end to such teeter-tottering. Psycho-Cybernetics faithfully followed (underlined) will insure the best possible conscious circumstances to enable the process to come to its speediest conclusions.