“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

She says she knew, you see, when she wrote this, but it was no coincidence that it was found now. Also she seems to have a quick… at least now she seems to have a quick, sputtering voice. (Yes. Exact voice description.) She says, and this is my impression: that’s no lie, as if that was an expression of hers. And that she and Jerry have guts and gumption. Like “that’s no lie” are parts of her own speech patterns. (All phrases of hers—and swearing.)

(3:25. Jane’s voice trailed off and she came slowly out of trance. Jerry and I had said nothing while Jane had been speaking. Now Jerry said that most of the material had meaning for her. As soon as she said this, Jane asked her not to say any more at this time, and I agreed.

She seems to be saying something like “tighten up for Christ’s sake—”

I see her banging on the table and she’s saying goddammit—she’s having a fight with the father —she’s swearing and kicked out… and there’s kids around. She’s hurt her foot. They’re fighting and they hit each other and she is calling him names. He is a no-good (swearing evidently omitted) …and something about a check and a job and another woman… And she says—I’m trying Robbie to separate myself—and she says by Jesus I won’t stand for it.

Now it’s later and he’s just sort of sitting there and he’s drinking and they’re in the kitchen and she threw something—and she says now she’d rather he (pause) was really full of life again like he was… Rather than like an old man…

And she watches him, and she tries to push him like she used to. (She did push him and rule the roost.) She wants him to get up and do something instead of just sitting there. She’s laughing as if she’s got a good joke… (Jane too was acting out the hilarious dialogue, in a manner that was not ordinarily her own.) She says I’m dead. What are you yelling about? She says she’s here… And she wants him to get up and act like a man.

(Jane’s voice rose again in hilarity.) A panic. You’re a goddam panic. She’s around and she says she’s livelier than he is at this point. I have the impression of a great big round object… I don’t know what it is, and a favorite song of hers, I think having to do with violets. Roses and violets, I don’t know.

She says she’s glad not to be sick any more, and that she’s changed, but she hasn’t changed that much. There’s something here that she likes her crops…crops … I’m not sure…. (Gardened always—hothouse even.)

She wants him to be his old self. (Pause, head down.) I seem to see a distant connection with Wisconsin (? Will ask aunt), on Billie’s part, I think… A wedding anniversary and a string of beads. (She wore beads a lot.) She was trying to get through Jerry to get to the father because she wanted him to know that she was with him as much as ever, and then she sort of laughs and says more so, probably more so.